Nightmares

ohh life .

2012-02-24T07:27:00.008-08:00

its been a long time since i blog . lets start with my school , shall we ? guess what . im so gonna flunk my common test this year . every single paper is so hard . especially my "FAVOURITE" subject , MATHEMATICS . i swear it so hard that i did the first question , turn next page and sleep .

but im lucky you see . cause i still got marks for it . 1/50 . okae la kan ? dari tak dapat pape . hehe ^^

second thing . hrmm , Dary was admitted to the hospital yesterday . he had appenddix at his young age like this . omg , i can really feel the pain he had to go thru during his operation in the afternoon . my family and myself didnt except all this to happen cause Dary is a very hyper kid and hes very active in every sports . its sucha pity that he had to go thru all this . dad cries . why must it be my little brother ? ): although Dary is always annoying and always making me go throwing temper at him , yet i still love him . afterall his my brother . my own blood and flesh . ya allah , ringan kan la kesakitan yang adek aku alami sekarang ni . dan moga2 Dary cepat sembuh . amin (';

and lastly , my love life . its our 4th monthsary today but sadly we cant celebrate it cause jyeah , i have to stay in the hospital to accompany my brother . Fonzie is so sweet . he came in the morning just to keep me company . and finally , he met my father . for now dad didnt say anything abt him but insyaallah now dad knows who im dating with or atleast he got the hint that Fonzie is my boyfriend . . Happy 4thmonthsary Fonzie ! ! ! ♥ ♥ ♥

alright , thats all . will keep updating more abt my little brother . adios

low self esteem

2012-01-25T04:17:00.000-08:00

apa yang harus aku buat biar kau padang aku sorang je ? hodoh sangat ke aku ni ? whos that somebody you wanna tackle ? she must be 10 times prettier than i am right ? )';

i swear i'll be whatever you want me to be as long as you wont leave me and you wont fall for someone else .if you cant accept me at my worst than i'll be at my very very best just to please you . i'll be as skinny as those girls you adores . i'll be as pretty as those girls you attracted to . i'll be everything )'; )'; i promise , i swear .

because i love you baby )'; ♥

2011 countdown

2012-01-01T11:16:00.000-08:00

2011 countdown was the best ah ! i party all night with boyfriend and his friends/cousins . seriously , his friends and cousins are all nice people . very outgoing and easygoing people . for the very first time i DANCE ! i never ever dance infront of my friends before sia . woaaahhh , hahha

the song cannot make me stop dancing la . i got to see my boyfriend dance and i dance along with him . party rock anthem was played , i shuffled with my heels on and i need to get new heels . heels aku da hancor la ): didnt get the chance to meet bancho , grrr nvm . reached home at 6 , slept at 9 . hahaha , i feel like dancing again ah since now i know how to dance . haaaaaaa macam faham .

i think i kemaruk boyfriend ah . everything i do , i think of him even at work . i keep thinking of him . i love you so much , Fonzie aka Frodo (';

every 24th please

2011-12-24T11:23:00.000-08:00

Hey guys ! meet my boyfriend , meet my bestfriend . heheh . wednesday , went to vivo with Nad and boyfriend . spent quality time with boyfriend cause boyfriend got camps for 3 days . so jyeah . saturday , went swimming with boyfriend . which is yesterday la kan , hahaha . celebrate our 2monthsary , weeee ! ~

picture above at vivo plus after swmming with boyfriend . okae goodnight (:

eyes on me

2011-12-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

i swear im feeling so scared right now . what if he find someone who really can make him happy ? or someone who have better looks than me ?

am i lack of beauty ? must i apply makeup just for you to lock your eyes on me ? must i ?

sigh , please dont leave me okae ):

i dont fucking care what you work as or how you dressup . matrep ke tak , aku tetap sayang kau . jyeah i know my family surely wont approve us being together but i dont mind . let them curse whatever they want on us . let them say whatever they wanna say . JUST FREAKING LETTHEMBE!

all i want is to be with you . rich or poor , i still wanna be with you . easy or hard , i still wanna be with you . i may not have the cutest voice . may not have the most flawless skin . or not be as feminine as those girls outside who wore different kind of skirts and tops . who apply thick eyeliner . damn how i wish i could be one of them so that

you will lock your eyes on me .

JUSTME! you know , at times i just thought that i should go for a makeover . change everything about me . they way i dressup , every single thing . . if changing is the only way that will make you lock your eyes on me , than i'll change .

dont leave cause i will cry a river )';

Breakign Dawn

2011-11-29T10:04:00.000-08:00

my hair getting longer , i rimas dengan fringe aku . lol

yay watched Breaking Dawn with bestfriends , Ezza & Najmi ^^ ♥ didnt get the chance to snap a picture with Najmi ): ouh btw after watching movie , i went to meet boyfriend . ehehe ((:

he go crazy when he sees me in red lip . awww , love you dear ^^

kae bye

short and sour

2011-11-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

dont know whats going on now mann . feel so down . one by one people tend to leave me . did i do something wrong ? or is it im the only one who felt all this ? hrmm . . did i hurt somebody ? i hope not , my godddd . urrggghhh i need a hug ! seriously ? free hugs ? lols ~

bitches and jerks

2011-11-13T11:00:00.000-08:00

bitches are bitches . jerks are jerks .

seriously i dont understand guys . at times they overreacting like some bitch . and at times , their ego like one pregnant woman . like wtf ? i think i shouldnt contact any guys la , why ? because i endup fighting with them -.-"

ni la hidup . people come and go . im so fucking tired of all this bullshit . at onetime , they came in your life , make you laugh , make you this and that and than after that , they just leave .

eh entering my life is not like entering some useless door okae . . . ? came and go as you pleased .

when i contact alot of guys , my friends called me a bitch just because i cant stick to one . nonsense kan ? apa siaa . . tak faham ahh aku ngan korang . apa aku buat semua salah ! ada je benda salah korang nak point pat aku .

thats why im just so lazy to have a boyfriend . its either my friends/family dislike him or he is just not the one for me .

for instant . Fonzie ~ last time i freaking wanna be with him , he fucking ignore me . when i move on and fall for Nazri , he said that he fall for me from the beginning he talked to me and hes after me right now .

Nazri ~ said that he want me to be his pretty badly , promise me this and that but in the end he dumped me for someone else . so much of your promises huh ?

and recently , i met a guy . a guy who have a kind heart but i just dont understand him la .

Fahmy ~ a guy who have great personality , cute sharp nose . whos great at silat . BUT ! why must he be so overreacting ? i dont know mann , its just that i cant go on with life like this .

can i say that i just need friends more than i need a boyfriend ? because seriously , theres no one who have that key to my heart .

ouhhhh i really need a hug )'; this is super killing me right now .

2011-11-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

i just wanna run away from everything )';

hey look its 11.11.11

2011-11-10T11:45:00.001-08:00

woooaaahh cant believe it , its 11.11.11

and seriously , at times i was like keep thinking abt Nazri . like what is he doing ? whos he dating now ? how is hes band doing ? everything abt him . . its just that , maybe me and him wasnt even meant to be together but thats okae . me wanna wanna wanna get over him but dont wanna forget abt him (';

okae so anw , me and Nad really end work at 12am . down crew plus we are like having fun working today . tease each other , laugh at how funny our weird customer order ~ HAHAHAHAH , i sounded so evil

cheyh takla , heheheh ;P

after working , me & somebody went to a school . climb up those fences . i know it sounds crazyy but hell jyeah , its fuuuuuuuunnnn ! IM CLIMBIIIINNNNGGGG HIGH BUILDINGS YAAAWW ! ! risky siooolll ! hahahaha . . . usually only climb at some blocks from level to level . try something newww la kan . .

climb to the rooftop . AWESSSOOOOOOMMME OIIII ! look at the star , moon . da macam star gaze , hahahaha . .

" ORANG MASAAAAAKKK ! " you know i know , public dont know . recently , i have a new stalker . jyeaaahhh ! hahahah

another thing im just so proud of myself , why ? because i learn new song on my guitar and honestly i get those chords and strum those strings pretty well . like woww ahh ! ~ hahaha . .

currently , chatting , texting and hoping that Nazri is not going to change his relationship status from " single " to in " relationship " ehhh . . . . hahahaha ! okae bye perut aku saket

i feel awesome

2011-11-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

11.11.11 , sigh much .

yay im fully recovered from my ear infections . awesome !

my hair is getting longer and im still trying my best to get over Nazri .

like seriously ah , see him & that girl wallpost to wallpost .

eeeeeeeeeee geraaaaammmm ! ! ! its okae . . . so anw ive been watching twilight again and again & i think im in love with Edward Cullen , Robert Pattinson . hes face reminds me of Nazri ! The hair , the smileee . ahhhhhh meeeeeeeelllts *

ehh anw i think im loving my life , cheyh ! ! hahaha XD

fuuuccckk jyeaah !

2011-11-04T02:13:00.000-07:00

okae so Nazri with someone else . im gonna let go . hrmmm im gonna try new sport soon after i got my pays . what new sport ? hehehe , stay tune ((:

ps:// rejections makes me stronger . thankyou

still waiting

2011-11-02T11:37:00.000-07:00

He set that picture as his profile picture in facebook . my goossshhh , i cant believe that i still cant over him . like seriously ? he didnt even text me . i was just so happy la why must be like this ?

my right ear is hurting , i cried myself to sleep . hes all i think whole day . keep listening to guardian angel .

Damn i miss you so much NazriRose ♥

NazriRose

2011-10-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

i swear i love this guy alooot )';

why ouhh why god ? i really wanna be with him . .

i wanna love and care for him . .

Pictures are all taken on the 30th . it was the happiest day of my life . i get to watch him performed . get to to spent a time with him . hug & kiss him . . . he sang me few songs by acoustic guitar . most favourite song that he sang to me was Guardian Angel - All Abandon Ships . i was smilling all the way when he sang . looking right in his eyes , feels like tearing infront of him than hug him & tell him how much i love him . . . i know i cant do all that to him .

like seriously why ? why he leave me when im starting to love him ? WHY ? ! ?

the night after that , i texted him saying that i dont want him to leave me & the next morning recieved this fucking hurtful text from him saying that he dont have the mood for being in relationship anymore . . wth kan ? !

i really love him . . . . . i swear )'; )';

i feel suck

2011-09-19T08:44:00.000-07:00

errrggghhh ! i miss AMAFF ! )';

im super down right now . . please i wish you would come back dear . .

i miss everything about you . why wont you talk to me ? reply to my texts ? )'; ive been faking my smile since you left . . . i dont want to forget you . i dont want to apart from you bestfriend . . . please come back )';

haish . . . . im sorry . . . . .

)';

fuck life .

2011-09-13T08:18:00.001-07:00

malacca trip was awesome , i shop like theres no tomorrow . its my own money okae . i aint using my parents money anymore . so jyeah celebrate raya with friends & family but celebrating raya with family is the best . wanna know why ? get alot of green packets ! cool , i know ~ ^^

i tried out different style this year . center parting my hair ~ most of my friends said that i look like a MUM . great huh ? -.-

ouh anw , ive been cursing & hating people around me these few days . why ? because some humans are just being so fucking unfair .

even my two bestfriends ! what the hell did i do to you both till you both dont wanna talk to me ? i came to school , you both dont even wanna talk to me ? don even look at me ! ahhh whatever la ~

they say live life , i say fuck life ! fuck september ! fuck everything ! >:'( okae bye

2011-09-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

TMR OFF TO MALCCA , SO GONNA BE AWAY FROM BLOG AWHILE . toodles lovelies ! ^^

weeeeeee !

2011-08-27T10:44:00.001-07:00

imma happy kid now ! muahahahaha ! i got this for $65.90 . months & moths , atlast ahhh ! hehehe so i went to cck with my bestfriend♥

he wore everything white just like a baby with a blue vest & not forgetting his shades . mygod , he look better without the shades .

from cck , took a bus to town , roll ard & than walk to bugis . he accidentaly step on a small pool of water & he complaining how soggy his feet feels . haaha , hes cute ! ^^

dier nye mrajok , aku tkle angkats ler ! muaahaha !im hungry , i wanna eat . bye

where are you ?

2011-08-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

omg seriously , where are you bestfriend ? whats wrong with you ? im getting pretty worried now ):

if you still not at home by today , i wont sleep tonight . i wanna wait for your call/text . i shouldnt have cancel our plans , im sorry . you know right how people react without thinking when they are mad at something . . . .

im sorry bestfriend , please come home )';

im tired .

2011-08-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

just got back from work . am tired , wait im super tired ! thought of going baybeats , awesome bands ~ but noone wanna go with me so jyeah i went to work instead .

have to pack 33 packs of fries , ouch my left thumb has a blister . can i learn drive thru , next pretty please ? hahah

damn , i work , school but i aint got no time to go out . grr ! im looking forward for this saturday ^^ going out with my bestfriend after working . all the best for me ! ! ! kae bye (=

its been along time

2011-08-17T18:28:00.001-07:00

hi homey . its been a long time since i update this blog of mine . its not that i dont want to update it but im getting lazy la . plus im busy with school & work .

suppose i should be in class right now but i overslept & wokeup at 7.45 .

even if attend school , i wont allow to go class . might as well i just stay at home right ?

about my life ? life as been good to me . its ramadhan so jyeaah to many obsticle i have togo tru but thats alright .

love life ? i aint got time for dude ! hahah !

i will try ^ upddate more often like i used to jyeah ?

till now , toodles (:

malassssss

2011-07-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

i'll update my blog tmr , maybe . cause now i got not hings in my head on what to blog . so jyeah . bye

29 brokeup

2011-06-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

now Ghazzi & me is nothing . we brokeup .

i dont wanna think much about it ah cause i will endedup hurting myself again just like how i keep hurting myself when i love Reandy or Kamaal . .

i really am suck at love eyh ? haish . . .

maybe im already fated to be like this . i wanna be happy )';

for the past 3 years ive been so emotional , i get angry too fast . what is wrong with me ? is it because ive been thru all this relationship ? or what ? im tired of getting hurt . im tired being lied too , cheat .

i dont wanna seek for love anymore . im tired of bullshits ! history will just gonna repeat again . . truth is Ghazzi is a nice guy , its just that his attitude makes me dislike him . Reandy are you okae ? how are you ? i hope you doing alright . . . . i miss you , so much )';

Kamaal , you so happy now without me . . . much more happier than before i knew you . haish ! so many things has change & i dont like the way things happening now . .

for now i keep listening to " mimpi indah " by apit ='/

nice song siaa . . . EMO EMO ALL THE WAY AGAIN LA KAE ? BYE

i feel suck

2011-06-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

jyeah today i feel so fucking suck . . i miss my two exboyfriends , Reandy & Kamaal . .

haish . . . Kamaal is now so happy with his life while Reandy . .

its so hard to get thru him . i texted but no reply .

i wonder what is he doing ~

i really hope Reandy is doing alright . . .

kita ni memang tkde jodoh ke ?

2 years being with him , i just cant believe that now we are complete strangers .

i miss you guys so much . . . )'; )';

could we ever meet again ?

i need to be strong but im not . . . . . im still stuck with those pain , do you know that ? haish . . . .

i miss bieng with you Reandy , i do miss being with you too Kamaal )';

haish . . . .

)';

2011-06-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

i know history gonna repeat again )';

i know me & Ghazzi just cant be together . . . i know whats gonna happen to us soon .

i dont wanna be broken hearted girl anymore .

im sick & tired of all this bullshit god . please help me god . . .

can me & Ghazzi last long ? why i dont feel good ?

i feel something bad is gonna happen . . but what is it ?

haish . . . .

you know , at this kind of situation , i kept thinking abt Reandy & Kamaal . .

i dont know what else to do . . .

im not strong enough to face all this )'; )';

Barbie !

2011-06-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

i swear im feeling so barbie today , heheh ♥

i was so bored at home till i doll myself up .

my brother's girlfriend really like my look . hehehehe

hey i aint that bad in makeup afterall . .

ive been calling my boyfriend " gemok " , & he getting all stressup .

texted my exboyfriends that i missed them , fuck jyeah im weird -.-

okae bye

work !

2011-06-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

had OJE just now . it was fun . seriously .

i aint feeling so lonely like last time i tried , hahha !

the uniform was new too , so jyeah i didnt feel any itchyness .

& i made new friends ! the makciks there is so nice to me & i made new friend with this girl who had the same name as me except that she had 2 F in her name while i had 1 F in my name .

so jyeah , shes kinda short than me yet so cuuuute ! i swear , shes really nice plus cute .

& than she complained to me abt how the work is so damn leceh ! hahaha

hopefully i get that job . i really need it ^^

hrmm i guess Kamaal has his new love , LOl ~ just hoping that he didnt throw away my photos & the presents i gave him . .

my love story with Ghazzi is alright . nothing new . hahaha !

about Reandy . . hrmm i dont know . never heard from him anymore . i miss him ~ i mean , miss as in , miss talking to him . because jyeah im so used to talk to him everyday & night .

i felt like theres something missing in my life but i just cant figure it out . hrmm , what could it be ? ):

kae la bye .

i need cash yaaawww !

2011-06-23T08:46:00.000-07:00

am working tomorrow yaaaw ! hopefully , i can bare with all the sucky moments in there . haha

the reason why i wanna work , its because parents need help in all the bills & me need cash ! jyesh cash !

its all about the money baby ! ^^

you know what , sometimes i just feel that im awesome in some ways .

hahaha ! not self praise okae . i mean , everyone is awesome right ?

oh shhiit , damn that bitch is single . buat hidup susah la dekni !

kae bye

im afraid

2011-06-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

i swear im having that feeling which i always hates it . well everyone hate it . what feeling im referring to ? bad history repeats again .

jyeah that feeling ! ='/

what if Ghazzi cheats on me ? or he leave me for someone else too ? im so afraid that he might use me the way Reandy & Kamaal did ):

im tired of being lied , cheat . i dont wanna get any false hope anymore . is Ghazzi really the guy for me ? damn ! please go away you suck feeling ever !

arggghhhhh ! Ghazzi dont look like he really love me .

am i lack of looks ? or what ? huh ? pfffftttt .

he when offline , not saying anything to me . he didnt even text me . should i go & text him ? or should i just let him be ~ what if he attracted to someone else ? someone else who is much more preetier ? omg , thats mean im being sucha extra ~ geeeee

am i ? im so suck at love la okae .

im so afraid that he might leave me cause i have that feeling , that he gonna ditch me sooner or later . god please help me )';

FEVER

2011-06-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

im having fever right now , bad luck -.-

goshh im seriously in pain right now . . god please help me .

anw i dont know why im so so freaking afraid to tell my past to Ghazzi .cause i know he will confirm2 sad , dissapointed & heartbroken .

kae bye , i sad , im in pain

make me happy please ?

2011-06-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

meet Ghazzi just now . i swear he smells so damn nice . .

i feel like hugging him & never want to let him go . Kae LOL .

anw , i cried alot yesterday . im so lame , crying over things which already really hurt me so damn fucking much . . .

waking up with a bad small eyes . Faris was right , my eyes do look like a fish -.-

hahahaha , EMO BUDDY !

ouhh btw im sick now . nose keep bleeding none stop , maybe because of yesterday ahh . cried none stop ! i even cried to sleep okae ? !

skali i got nose cancer eyh ? hahha , cheyh tkla

i swear i still miss Kamaal . im staying strong here . am i ? cause i feel like i dont =/

kae bye , i wanna spam my boyfriend fb wall ^^^^^^^^^

im tired

2011-06-15T00:40:00.000-07:00

Im sick & tired of this stupid feelings .

why is it so hard for me to forget kamaal after what he had done to me ? gossshhh man . its not that i want him back , but i want him to feel how exactly im feeling right now ~

Reandy still treating me the same way =/ being so freaking nice to me , meet me & than fucking ignore me after that . i hate it when you ignore me , like im one kind stranger like that . .

cmon dude , you need a shouler to cried on & i gave you.. cant you treat me like a friend ?

did i ask for so much ? is asking to be a friend is so , much ?

the feeling suck harcore alright ! ? )';

jyeah i totally i understand you . i know you well but seriously you're different now . SO BIG DIFFERENT ! damn ~

looking at how happy Kamaal is , making me heart ache alot . do you even know how much i put in effort to forget you ? ! JUST TO FORGET YOU ! im looking so happy now but inside im dying ! i really am dying )'; )';

i dont want Ghazzi to be my rebound , i never want that to happen but look at the situation now . it looks like Ghazzi really is my rebound , haish ~ ~ im so sorry )';

the feeling is so damn suck hardcore okae ? can someone like understand me for once ?

haish . . . .

why i keep thinkng of him ?

2011-06-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

Lets make it quick okae ? i didnt update yesterday because i was busy uploading pictures in facebook . actually these few days im not feeling so good . . . not as in im unwell =/

im angry , im moody looking at how happy Kamaal is . its not that i want him to suffer but its just that i kinda miss him ~ ~ hrmm jyeahh . . . .

i know i know , i shouldnt been thinking of him . he just appeared in my mind & sometimes i wish he suffer the pain , the frustrating feeling like how i used to feel or what im feeling right noe -.- . he is like so fucking happy that it makes me wanna take revenge for what he did to me !

JYESH REVENGE IS A NO GOOD ! EVER ! =.=

but i feel that i should take my revenge . grrr

please Ghazzi , come home asap ): i need you . . . really need you . i dont want you to be my rebound , i wanna love you really as a boyfriend . sigh .

& pretty please karma , please hit Kamaal real bad . ergghhh

im so frustrating ! ! ! >:(

kae bye

Sales , LOL

2011-06-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

Hi ! im gonna let go some of my clothes ~ so jyeah , blog will update too abt those selling items .

Anw , i miss Ghazzi ): hrmm , hopefully he reach there safely (';

geeez , Reandy is suffering sia now . i pity him ~ god please show him the right path . . . . amin

Im attached

2011-06-08T08:46:00.000-07:00

Ouhkae im attached now . To Ghazzi ! hahaha ! somehow that feeling just appear in me despite ive been rejecting guys alot ~

Im hoping that i didnt accept him to make him my rebound . grrr . i hope so notttt !

i gotta to admit that my feelings for Kamaal never changed but i have to try my very best to fight that feeling away . God please help me , im indeed of your help .

Hopefully , Ghazzi & me can last long . i mean , really really last long tho we live so far at each corner of the line .

Anyway Ghazzi is off to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow & he will be back on sunday ): jyeah thats a very long journey . 080611 , why i pick this date ?

07 is me & Kamaal .

08 , me & Ghazzi

09 , is me & Reandy .

COOL ? i know right ! hahaha

I know im gonna miss Ghazzi ); ahh nvm , we are still gonna meet soon . Hes tall & i hate it . because im short =/

fuck that , hehehe

Its a new start now for me & Ghazzi (:

Please la last long ! Malas nk berkenalan2 lg ah . hahaha

I love you Ghazzi (: ♥

Toddles , xoxoxo

Think twice

2011-06-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

I dont feel good about tomorrow )'; i wanna cry everything out today to sleep )';

New friends .

2011-06-06T07:43:00.000-07:00

So watcha doing ? when to vivo with my awesome new friends & my two goody goody bestfriends , Nad & Fatihah plus my best buddy , Charlotte (:

didnt know what to wear cause i didnt plan what to wear before that . i wore my tie dyed shirt & i changed to stripe grey long sleeve . it wasnt mine , it was my brother's girlfriend long sleeve . its fit me perfectly ! i feeeeeeeeel so nice , hahahah self praise ^^

Off to vivo with Charlotte , meet the rest . what weird is , Ayie kept looking at me ? & i was like , why the hell is she looking at me like that ? ! hahaha

went to NTU with Nad & Fatihah to see a girl ~

home sweet home with them too , it felt so great that atlast we three went out together just like last year !

Jyeah the last time we three went out together was LAST YEAR ! hehehe xD

Ouh btw ! Nad & Fatihah told me that my picture with Kamaal is so sweet . which picture ? on my previous post when Kamaal look like a kiiiiiiiiddddd <3

BUT what is past is past right ? so jyeah , i push that feeling aside & start thinking about Ghazzi .

My new love i guess ? hehehe . . .

Hrmm kae i think thats all for today , toddles ! ♥

Few minutes more is mine & Kamaal 6months ! Waaaaa )';

pathetic guy

2011-06-05T08:37:00.000-07:00

Im fighting with a guy who says that he is cute when he is not ! okae alil .

but Ghazzi is more cute ^^

Im tired of all this shits .

2011-06-03T10:53:00.000-07:00

Im so angry right now . at the same time , down . i thought you could be the next guy who gonna lightup my life , make me smile & laugh again . but when i saw this . . . i realise that it wont change a thing if we're together . .

gosh this feeling suck to the core . you make me miss Kamaal alot )';

shouldnt have known you , shouldnt have like you )';

god god god , i need you right now . .

Im sorry Ghazzi , we cant be together )'; jyesh you are sweet . sweet enough to make me smile , laugh without trying . . . . but as for now , i treat you just like a friend . not much . i can already see whats gonna happen to us with we're together . i dont want endup you hating me or me hating you . so its best if i just be honest with you okae , Lamber Baby ? i pick what best for myself )'; i have that strong fucking feeling that you still love Salina .

Salina = Selena .

gonna miss texting with you , on the phone with you . listening to your long long essay about your life .

toddles , Sharpay love ♥ )';

lazy

2011-05-18T08:17:00.001-07:00

i lazy want to update . i got no mood . i wanna cry all day long . he never wanna give me chances to show him that i love him . she already belong to someone else la kamaal . haish ! i will update once im okae & not lazy . i miss you kamaal . kae bye

1 day he didnt text me .

2011-05-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

Kamaal didnt text me the whole day . ohmy . . its so fast for him to just change his love towards me & get another one . . doesnt he know how its feel like to be left broken hearted ? i totally miss him so much but he acts like nothing happens . . haish . . text me soon Bubu cause im waiting )';

i miss you kamaal . .

2011-05-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

i know he wont reply to my texts . . haish . . what did i ever do wrong bubu ? )'; )';

Happy 5monthsary Bubu . .

2011-05-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

Hi people . Happy 5monthsary Kamaal . haish . . i guess this will be the last goodbye . i hope you are happy with her )'; haish . . .

OMG !

2011-04-24T07:13:00.001-07:00

Tmr is our last meeting ! ohmygosh , i wish that time would stop now so i couldnt say goddbye to him )';

kae bye

he is leaving . . .

2011-04-22T07:49:00.001-07:00

i know i look ugly in that picture but i just dont care anymore . i dont give a shit to my looks or whatever . . )'; i feel like smilling anymore

i cant believe this is happening between me & Kamal . .

After monday , he wont contact me anymore .

he said that he wont contact me anymore or whatsoever . . . im not yet ready to say goodbye to him because i still love him

im so down , i dont know what else to do anymore . do you guys know what he means by not contact anymore ? - no calls , no texts , no meetups . that is what he means . . . . . i cried on the phone with him you know ~ )'; )';

than he keep asking me not to cry but what can i do right ? i love him thats why im like this . . .

you people might be wondering about ymy feelings towards Reandy right ? okae let me tell ya'll this . . i do still love him but not as mush as i do in the past . jyeah i really am jealous when he treat Farah for her birthday . sang her a birthday song . .

for the past 2years when we're still together , he never celebrated my birthday & he always the last person to wished me . if you girls were in my shoes , what would you feel ? jealous ofcause !

but i cant stop him , that Farah is way more prettier than me so jyeah , jealousy come ~ haish

anw right now , my biggest love is only for Kamal . you people might think that imma player but no im not . its about your heart ~

well i wish we could start over again but he dont wanna be with me . tmr his going out with his gig friends . . confirm Shidah also have , hasih ! ! )';

FML please

im just waiting for monday to come & i wanna let out what has been keeping in me for so long . i wanna hug him as long as i can . . i love you so much Kamaal . . )'; )';

what is happening now ?

2011-04-19T08:13:00.001-07:00

2 days of worrying & sleepless night , the next day i get was

" lets just be friends " ? !

& today i get was ,

" lets move on can ? " . .

seriosuly , wtf is happening in my life right now ?

fuck fuck fuck fuck ! why must it happened to me ? )';

Im not yet get over Reandy & now Kamal is leaving ? oh god , why are you giving me sucha bad test ? ? ? i cant go thru it . . . i really cant )';

im angry , im sad , im crying . . .

both of you mean so much to me but than you both just dont care anymore about me . its like , when you need me , you'll come to me & than when you guys dont need me , you guys throw me aside . .

whats the use of all those promises when you cant even kept it , Kamal ? i still keep all your text you know ? from the time we havent in relationship ~

oh my , i dont know what else to do ?

i might be breaking down anytime again . . . haish . .

am i really stupid ?

Reandy & Kamal already moved on .

look at me . im still stuck , hurting ~

THEY DONT EVEN CARE ! ! ! ! )'; YOU GUYS ARE SO HEARTLESSSS ! ! !

HEARTLESSS ! ! ! ! ! )'; )'; )'; )';

i cant forget abt you . .

2011-04-16T08:48:00.000-07:00

Why is it so hard to forget about you ? haish . . ive been trying really hard to get my mind off you but i failed )'; i really love you . cant you see that ? cant you give me another chance ? i want to be with you . . .

everyhting changed in my life ever since you're gone . i cant be happy but still plaster a fake smile . its been 3 days since i last text you . . i feel like texting you but i dont want you to get annoyed . . im not happy Reandy , i really am not . im still waiting for you )'; i wont stop waiting for you . my love for you is really big than your love to her or any girls that entered your life )'; haish . . . . i love you , Reandy .

I just cant figure it out . .

2011-04-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

its so easy to get Reandy exgirlfriend blog link -.-" & jyeah ive read her blog . . i feel bad for her . did i really was the one who wreck their relationship ? should i just leave them both alone ? haish . . .
i dont know what else to do .
i see that Suria really loves him alot . .
Should i just stop contacting him like how he wanted to ? i cant maan ~ i really cant . its not that i dont try , i did tried but its really hard . i swear );

Reandy is in love with someone else ~ im right here waiting for him , doesnt he knows that ? without him , im so weak . i saw what Kamal texted his friend , saying that he dont want to be in relationship bcs he dont wanna be control but why is he still asking me for patch up ?
am i a doll for you to play ?
im tired of being hurt , im just so freaking tired

But i dont mind getting hurt by Reandy . . . hrmm , im so confused )'; i gotta admit that i kept thinking abt Reandy ever since he left me . those pain really cant be tell . . its like im the only one who knows how hurt it feels , its killing me so deeply . Talk to me soon okae Reandy ? i miss you . . badly . i didnt text him the whole day , tsk ! )';

Anw peeps , my dad bought for me the Avril Lavigne concert ticket , thanks dad (: well i guess im going alone since noone wanna go with me , haha . its okae to me as long as i got to see Avril performs . hehehe ^^ woah , my blog is like an essay . hahaha , i think i gotta go . toddles

Movie . .

2011-04-11T08:50:00.001-07:00

Went out just now with exboyfriend , Kamal , to watch this . Its really a good movie you know . you guys must go & watch it . no regret ! ^^ cute , romantic & it can really make you go " awwwwwwwwww !! " hahaha . . I never seen Kamal so angry before . .
kinda cute anw , haha . btw just than , Reandy talked to me in facebook . well . .

he's expressing what he feels about a girl he loves so so much bt that girl is already attached . im really down right now okae . you keep talking about how hurt you are but do you know how hurt i am upon reading what you type ? i guess you never know . . haish . . . .
its like you keep telling me how much you want her & all i wanna reply was , " i really want you )'; " . .

what the hell is wrong if me ? i just love you so much , wasnt that enough to prove it to you ? im like totally completely invisible to you . . please understand me too , Reandy )';

Lets try Hrilled Chicken ! ^^

2011-04-10T08:43:00.000-07:00

Went out with family to try out those Grilled Chicken at bedok . hahah ! so not yummy , really =.= it taste really suck , i didnt finish it . at the menu , the chicken look so nice but when its arrived , omg ~ i hate it aloooot . . . haha ! hey i think im gonna wear eyeshadows again , LOLOLOL ! ~ Alright i know why he didnt reply all my texts . because he said that he wants me to forget him . honestly , i cant forget abt him . its already 6 MONTHS , dude ! ! Jyeah2 , that girl is gorgeous . who the hell i am anw ! ? imma sucha an ego & always think about myself right . . gosssh man , i really love you . why cant i deserve another chance to prove it to you ? grrr bye !

this is what people should call bitches !

2011-04-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

Click to enlarge okae people ? (:

That girl in the picture with those big spect is Reandy ex girlfriend . & look at what she talks abt me in her facebook ! she label me as a WRECKER EX GIRLFRIEND ! excuse me bitch , youre the one who didnt know how to take care of him & now you're blaming me ? ! cmon la girl , be thankful that i save your ass la kae ! imma what ? cheapo slut ? i didnt even said that to you about i gave in to him okae . you wanna turn the story around , go ahead la sial . . you are fucking lucky that i didnt post at facebook what i really feel about you okae girl ? you cant even spent a time with him ! what you expect huh ? for him to stay with a girl like you ? ! one thing that i wanna say . you're sucha coward ! ! you post that in facebook & than you deleted me from your facebook . why ? because you're scared that i might read it right ? hahaha & you even dares to said that you wanna punch me ? please la miss , i dont wanna ruin your reputation but i guess i had no choice , you made me too so jyeah , let me tell you this !

YOU LOOK SO LIKE A GRANNY ! YOU ARE SO UGLY UGLY UGLY BITCCCCCH ! ! the first time i saw your face , i wanna puke ! seriously babe , you look like a granny ! with those eyeliner , ohmygod . its like someone already punch in your eyes . well i hope im gonna punch you in the future ! since imma wrecker to you , well im wrecker that already save your ass before he did anything to you , MOTHERFUCKER ! ! take that sluuuut ! ^^

if you said that you already moved on , you wont be posting anything about what happened anymore . obviously you had not moved on cause you always keep posting about your sadness in facebok just like what i did . well i hope you read this okae & if youre not happy with it , you have my number right ? ring me ~ eeeeuuuww , you look like an ugly fish granny . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! ! !

im gonna be happy , i promise . .

2011-03-15T08:23:00.000-07:00

im gonna be happy just for him . . he gave me hope to stay strong . i love you so much , Reandy ! ♥ btw the picture above , im with my bestfriend . she awesome , i love her ! ((:

Its our 25months )';

2011-03-08T08:06:00.001-08:00

12midnight just passed & im really really sad . . i just wanna say , Happy 25months , dear Reandy )';
i love you so much . . will we be fated to be together again ? i really can take it with this feeling . i feel like begging you again , crying on your knees again but i cant . . . i cant stop thinking of you . your image always appears in my mind , you're he best i ever had . I SWEAR THAT YOU'RE THE BEST ! who ever be your girlfriend , im sure they wont regret . . . sigh . .

i promise you this time , that this will be the very last text you gonna recieve from me )'; )';

be happy with her , take care of her like how you used to took care of me . . love her like how you used to loved me )';

Reandy . . . . . . . )'; )'; )';

Last long Reandy Love )';

2011-03-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

sigh . i wish you are happy now with your new girlfriend , Reandy )';
i cant deny that i still love you . i cant deny that i fucking miss you . .
it was shocking to see you changed your relationship status to ' Attached ' .
did you even know that ive been waiting for your text & calls ? )';
each tyme my phone vibrate , i was deeply hoping that it was you but its not . .
its really hard for me to accept the fact that now you belong to someone else .i miss being with you . . . . i dont know what else to do without you dear )';

i really really love you , Reandy )';

how i wish you stil mine ~ )'; )'; )';

Sports day .

2011-03-03T08:42:00.001-08:00

ouh hello ! why am i posting hys pic here ? kae . bcause he overnight at my cribs right now , besde me -.-"
parents allowed , so jyeah ~
anyways , sports day was awesome ! i spray water at Aishi & threw a bottle at Vickraam . Nice uh ? ^^
Thanks to Charlotte cause she help me did the french braids . COOL ! ! ♥
Guess what ? ! Mr Wan took part too & he so cuuuuute ! . . .
Huahuak ! he run so fast , da mcm lipas kudung . hehehe

he keep listenng to hardcore songs , irritated me la ! >:(
spellingchecker ! **************

weeeee , kae bye

PAAAAAANAASSS ! !

i get my ic !

2011-03-01T06:09:00.001-08:00

Hey (: i cant believe that this term , im late for 5 times ! this is really bad seyh , why cant i getup early ? im lucky that Mr Lim let me off this time . if not i have to serve TRC(which i really hate) & if i serve TRC , Papa Bakhtiar wont let the class to have BBQ . i dont want because me , my classmates didnt get the chance to BBQ . Fiq , please dont be late anymore okae ? tsk . i know i already setup the alarm clock but still i cant wake up -.-"
good right ? bleaaaaaaahhhhh ! ! ~

School is awesome =D oh i get my IC ! hahaha ! i get bck from school , i show my family memebers
im overreact , hehehe ^^

ermm , currently im fighting with Kamal . ive been insult alot of times & im getting sick of it ! like honestly okae , Reandy insult me pretty bad & now Kamal ? wtf ! i cant tolerate any insult anymore ah . . just becareful to those who try to insult me cause i might throw a tight slap on your face or even a punch on your fucking face ! ! you like mehh if people insult you ? dont like than do insult others la buto . .
isssh celamak betol ! geram siak akuh >:(

cool down fiq , cool ~ later kak Syfa order for you Mcspicy alright ? so chilling down now ~ hahaha
should i cut my finger nails ? i cant play the guitar if i never cut it seyh . . tsk , banyak susah la !
anyways , did i tell you abt my spinning head ? hahaha
its not really spinning actually ^^ bahahahaha !
my head hurs alot & i thought that after taking nap , it should be fine so i took a nap . i wokeup , my head hurts damn alot ! i feel like its gonna burst anytime ! hahahahahahahaha

but thank god , im kinda feeling better right now (: did i type much today ? gee , i promise myself im gonna update my blog ;D
gonna stop here cause im waiting for my McSpicy ! trolololol

toddles * hugs*

update ah !

2011-02-27T07:57:00.000-08:00

OH ! monday blues again , weeee ♥ hahaha ! school days are awesome okae . i dont think school are boring but the studies is boring . kidding alright ~ so , i didnt update much lyke i usually does because i know noone will read my blog lyke before . blog is dead now & idk why . im so lazy la to update , really ~ beside , im buzy with school , friends . hmph ! common test is over , now the time is to enjoy before common test 2 . trolololol ! ~
didnt get good result for those test cause i didnt study ! why i didnt study ?
because ! nothing gets on my head . haha
gaah , actually idk what to talk about so jyeah , will be updating when IM NOT LAZY . hahahaha

toddles babes & hunks

lazylazylazy

2011-02-26T09:53:00.001-08:00

i'll update when i had free time , im so lazy . hehehe
byebye (:

Differents guys i meet

2011-02-22T07:25:00.000-08:00

i took my favourite teacher advise & i think it really works on me ^^
so many differents guys i meet these few days . .
honestly , some are weird , funny , cute , charming . but it didnt capture my heart & idk why . . some guy said that he love you & drown you with those shitty sweettalks & after that he stay far away from you . wtf kn ? haha . theres some always wanna be with you just because they are after your body ! cant take it anymore , go geylang la . correct or not ? hahahahahha
different guy , different attitude . . hahaha so girls please dont be so rush in loe jyeah ? get to know your future partner deeper ((:

toddles

awesome valentine with K

2011-02-15T07:26:00.001-08:00

& thats how we celebrate valentine day . hahahas ! gtg , i really need some rest . toddles

valentine is tomorrow !

2011-02-13T07:24:00.001-08:00

ohmygod ! i cant wait for tmr , valentine ♥ . im so already happy but i nvr think where to go . gosh me please ~ =/ what place suitable for valentine ? hpmh
so anyway , text reandy just now . just wishing hym goodluck & than we tend to chat abit with each other until he pointed something wrong to me . im kinda angry at hym now but ah nvm . . .
i text aniq too . remember aniq ? hahah , i laugh to myself when i think abt our past . its so damn funny gytu . sumpah ! ;D

hrmm i just waiting for kamal to reach home so its easy for me to on the phone with hym cause my pp8 is dead , hardly text hym man . ergggh , shittty -.-"
alright , im bored . k bye

ooooh valentine is coming

2011-02-12T07:49:00.001-08:00

ooooo hi ! hahaha ! kae , im happy since just now & idk why . geee ^^
yaaaaaaaaay ! ! ! valentine is just one more day away . im so gonna have a date for valentine . AWESOME ! !
wait . actually idk what to talk abt cause i just wanna update blog so it wont be dusty . hehe ♥ omg i hate my blogskin . its so ugly . doncha think i should change it ? leceh ah tukar2 blogskin . haha !
after valentine than i update blog lg okae ?
bye lovely people ! ! =DD

i wanna die

2011-02-10T07:26:00.000-08:00

Why you keep on cheating on me reandy ? must you came back everytyme i fucking wanna forget you ? do you freaking know that i was happy being with kamal until the day you texted me & you said that you love me lyke you usually does but i check your fb , YOU FUCKING OKAE ! wtf do you want from me maan ? ! you want CHIN YI JIE than go ahead , dont mess my lyfe ! ! ERGGGGGGHHHH ! why must you came back ?
oh why did i miss you again ? )';
its hurting me so deep inside . ive been crying none stop reandy . . . . . . !
is it still not enough for you to hurt ? ! HUH ? !
)'; )'; )'; )';

we are so sweet

2011-02-07T07:18:00.000-08:00

Heya ! school is so fucking bored today . math teacher didnt came so i in class , talk & read mr.nightmare . serious shit siaa , i keep no reading when im bored . hahaha
weirdo la me ~ ^^
well hrmm , things between me & Kamal when out smoothly . went to meet hys mum aftr school than meet Jelly & Charlotte . follow them to whereever they wanna go .
we stop by the face shop & try those nail polish , awesome dude ! ! im gonna get that hot pink nail polish ~ so good to me , hahas
so jyeah , window walking there but Jelly & Charlotte run off to dont know where . me & Kamal , just walk ard , entered popular & laugh out loud there . tease each other . awwwwww ! ~ i so love today ~ grrr ♥
actually , im kinda not in he mood cause im having period & Kamal knows abt it so jyeah he understnd if i get mad easily . he is so sweet , i love you dearest ♥ <3>

single lyfe ?

2011-02-04T05:27:00.001-08:00

Omg ! hys so cute ! the best adviser & an awesome teacher (: oh jyesh , i really do had a crush on hym . leading a single lyfe again , that doesnt matter anymore . giving in doesnt mean you're a loser but it means that you are strong enough to let go so i let kamal go & hope that they'll get back together .
let hym go & chill myself .
kae , now im aint texting reandy or kamal anymore . . since reandy had fully forgetten me than i think i should too ! ^^
awww i hope kamal doing fine ): sorry , if i had to let you go dearest . i just want the both of you to get back together .
gotta admit that i still do love hym & i feel guilty at the same tyme . shouldnt i fight for our love but i let it down . idk what should i do .
okae enough abt kamal =D
ohh recently , celebrate CNY at school . so endless fun ! yanti made rainbow cupcakes , its so yummy & so sweeeeeeeeet ! i fucking love it ♥
co form teacher bought pizza for us , as we did a great work decorating the classroom . differents types of pizza maaan ! cool huh ? ~

grrr shit ! i just remember that tmr i had riligion class . damn , i'll sure gonna be bored ~ bleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

should i text kamal ? i miss hym =/

ommmmmmmmmgggg

2011-02-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

why ? ! why must i be the one whom stuck with all this kind of love ! ? why ! ? i fucking tired of it ! im always the one who should be giving up for the one i love ! )';
is this means that i have to let go of Kamal too ? ! argggh ! why must be me ! ? firstly i have to let go of Reandy & now , Kamal ! ? cant i be happy with the one i love ? ohmygod , i really cant take it anmore . . . kamal ex still love hym . . what should i do ?
shes waiting for Kamal & im here being so happy with Kamal without thinking abt her sadness . . . sigh *
lyfe is so unfair towards me . . i have to let Kamal go . i must ! ~
ohmy . . . . . please god , give me some strenght )'; )';

not gonna post

2011-01-21T06:47:00.001-08:00

Just gonna inform you guys that i wont be blogging for awhile cause been buzy with school & often get tired easily .. So jyeahh , tc (:
toddles

suffer again

2011-01-18T05:57:00.000-08:00

seriously idk what else to do . im so fucked up with my lyfe . . i guess i hurt boyfriend♥ alot . . im sorry boyfriend♥ )'; im not a good girlfriend . . search for others , could you ? pleaseeee )'; & that hym wont stop pretendin towards me . gosh man ~
im going to stay away from both of thier lyfes slowly . i cant get myself to the right path . i always messed up things .
i still stalk you lyke i always did & you know . . its super hurt me when i saw what you post on your fb . you said that you love me but your fb is all FULL OF THAT CHINESE GIRL ! wtf ? ~
idk why on earth i still think of you when you fucking leave scars on me ! ergggh ! )';
is it still not enough for you to see me suffer ? for the past 3 years , now you shown me your true colours ? why ? ! you made me look lyke a fool ! you ruined everything in my lyfe but i still love you . . . )'; ARGGGGH
what the hell is happening to me ? who else should i share with ? its lyke im forever alone .
could someone make me happy ? i need a hug ~ badly . . . )';

haish . . .

im so giving up soon

2011-01-17T06:22:00.000-08:00

I think its gonna be another bad year for me =/ maybe i should just leave my "bestfriends" alone . i always get them into trouble . . i told them that i would change but im still the same . DM wont let them befriends with me . parents dont let them befriends with me . see i wack my "bestfriends" lyfe . what will happen to boyfriend♥ lyfe ?
should i just get away from everyone ?
i know this would happened but why on earth i still ignore all this true feelings ? )'; damn im really hurt right now . .

- i always made my parents fought because of me & than elder brother hv to stop them .
- i always get my friends into big trouble & cause thier parents to be so mad at them .
- i hurt hym alot last tyme till he search of someone else .
- i made boyfriend♥ so stress last night because of what i blog .
- i cant make things right instead i messed it up even worse . .
- i made couple fights & brokeup .

)'; )'; what a terrible lyfe i had ~

i wanna be children back not young adults . if i was still a kid , all this thing wont happened . . can i go back in tyme to where im still a kid , childish ? )';

this is the reason why i prefer to be alone & not mixing around . im so afraid that i might hurt more & more people . . sigh *
should i get away from everyone include boyfriend♥ ?
should i leave boyfriend♥ so he would look someone else who is much better than me ?
when can i hv my friends back ?

im at nearest point of giving up everything , i swear .
cant bare with everything that happening right now . .
you were once my favourite pillar , pillar of strength
but what happened now ? you're gonna be someone else favourite pillar soon );

I HONESTLY HATE MY FUCKING LYFE ! ! ! I REALLY HATE MY FUCKING UNCOOL LYFE ! ! ! )'; )'; )';

i wanna run away from everything . please god , i beg dont made my lyfe more miserable . . i really cant handle it any longer . i could gvup sooner )';
can i hv my old lyfe bck , god ? please . . . i feel lyke i wanna sleep now & never ever wokeup anymore cause if i sleep , i dream & when i dream , lyfe seem so fair . . . .
maybe im really born to be a loner . ive tried to change to a better person but still im the same . you were right afterall , i did never changed . );
seriously , why is lyfe being unfair to me ? what should i do to make everything better ? leave this world ? stay away fromm all my frieds ? breakup with my boyfriend♥ ? huh which one ? ! )';

why does this feelings came bck ? ! why all this misery came bck haunting me ?
i cant do anything but to cry & CRY ! ! !

i just wanna be alone at this kind of situation )';

what i feel

2011-01-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

i feel so wrong towards boyfriend♥ ); keeping secrets from hym is killing me . . i just cant get myself to keep secrets from boyfriend♥ but at the same tyme im afraid of telling boyfriend♥ the truth . im afraid that things might change between us . idk how to start it . . .
whatever im gonna say next , please boyfriend♥ dont be mad at me . .

i still miss hym . ~

jyesh i know i said that ive forgotten hym & blablabla . thats because im trying to ignore this feeling of mine ~
i wanna love boyfriend♥ lyke how i love hym . )';
i cant get hym out of my mind . ive tried really hard okae ! i just cant . . .
maybe its takes more than 3 months to forget hym or even more than that . idk . that feeling towards hym did fade but somehow that feeling came bck to me . .
everytyme im with boyfriend♥ , i feel lyke im with hym . i wanna shed tears infront of boyfriend♥ but no i didnt cause i dont want boyfriend♥ to know whats on my mind .
ive tried to get myself buzy with boyfriend♥ so i wont be thinking abt hym .

i still remember when im with hym & i couldnt forget abt previous ex , he always stayed by my side . he spent hys fullest tyme on me . . trying to make me forget abt my previous ex & it takes me more than 6 months to forget my previous ex .
im afraid of telling boyfriend♥ whats on my mind , it because im scared that boyfriend♥ might get hurt & get bored of me cause i kept thinking of hym . .
--& what if i told boyfriend♥ abt it than he starts to chat with other girls just to put my image away from hys head . .

erggggghh ! )'; )';

i just dont know what to do okae . its hurting deeply inside me . im confused . frustrated ! ~ im so down right now . i dont know who to talk to . . )';
what if boyfriend♥ starts to ignore me when he find out these truth ? its means that , im losing someone i love AGAIN ? ):
how can i forget abt hym ? ive tried everything . . i force myself not to text hym . i force myself to think abt boyfriend♥ . only boyfriend♥ ~

i hate it when im alone cause hys image tends to crept in my mind . . can someone brainwash me ? sigh *
please god , i need strength for all this . . are you giving me more test lyke before ? sigh )'; )';

negative thoughts already in my head right now ):
what if boyfriend♥ already starts to chat with other girls ? just lyke how he starts to chat with me when he already had a girlfriend before ? ohhhmy , why am i thinking all this ?
you girls out there , would know how i feel . .

how can i ever end this feeling ? by ending my lyfe ? )';
i wanna forget evrything abt hym & start anew with boyfriend♥ . . .
what if boyfriend♥ gets bored being with me ? what if theres already someone else in hys mind ?
what if he leave me for that someone new ?

i may look as happy as a grewing sunflower but actually deep inside im lyke a dead sunflower . i look strong in the outside but deep inside im not . . deep inside , im crying lyke theres no ending to it .
my heart is breaking lyke theres no fixing to it . . .
too much in my mind . )';

Oh guy , how should i evr forget you ? )'; idk what else to do . . i feel so down everytyme i think abt you . . my spirits just went shooo ~ whenevr you are in my head . we shared alot of things together . happy , sad , EVERYTHING . we're so connected to each other . we dont care what people speaks abt us . remember when you said that , we'll get engaged once we bought that couple ring ? you wanna know something . . . its so deeply hurt when you leave me for that she . but its more hurt to see you hurting because she doesnt accept your love & yet you still waiting for her . that hurt is lyke cutting my own veins , did you know that huh ? did you know that after you left me , i lock myself in my room & shed tears for you ? i didnt hv my proper meal . i didnt do well in my exams . . do you even care in what situation i am at that moment ? i guess you dont ~ cause you buzy with her . . picking her up from her home to go school together . . TILL NOW , IT STILL CUT ME SO BAD ! ! ! )'; )'; )';

boyfriend♥ , im sorry if what i express now is hurting you . . i cant get myself to keep secrets from you . . i respect your love & thats why i dont wanna keep secrets from you . im really sorry if what i post is hurting you or made you cry or cant sleep . . . sigh * )';
if after this , you going to ignore me or put me aside , i understand . . even if you wanna leave me now , i would understand . . you remind me so much of hym . sometymes i feel lyke i should be away from you but i couldnt . what if we get into alot of fights with each other because of hym ? you'll surely get bored of it right . . im so scared that you'll leave me . . losing hym is lyke im losing half of my lyfe but if i lose you , means i lose my whole lyfe . . . . i wanna cry on your shoulder , letting out everything i feel but at the same tyme i dont want you to get hurt ~ im sorry if at tymes im rough at you . . i love you , i wanna forget hym & be super happy with you . if this feeling of mine still the same for 6 months , would you still be with me ? would you be the one whom will change everything ? ? i hope yes ~
im sorry if i hurt you dear love )'; )'; im so so sorry !

am i strong enough to hold on to this feeling ? i feel lyke breaking down & giving up soon . . . sigh )'; )';

is evrything gonna be the end soon ? ):

tudung madness . . . lol

2011-01-15T07:47:00.000-08:00

So thats how i look lyke when im wearing tudung . hahahas ! look so different right ? i know ! ! ! btw , hello my lovely people (:
how you guys doing ? LOl
well , actually idk what to post abt you see . . . . hrmm . .
currently just waiting for boyfriend♥ to online cause he went out to lepak with hys friends ~

its an okae okae day for me today , i guess . went to riligion class with brand new uniform . the uniform is much more nicer than before cause the old uniform is blue in colour & the blue is lyke SO SO FREAKING DULL ! no joking okae =/
love the new uniform alot ! hpmh ! i think my friends & i are fighting for something dumb @.@baaaaaah , i dont mind being alone again ah cause im so used to it -.-anw , idk why im listening to girls generation lately . . hrmm . . kae i admit , girls generation songs is pretty much nice la . L.O.Lthey are lyke . . . err , dolls ? ^^ big eyes ~Oh whatever please !WHY ISNT BOYFRIEND♥ HOME YET ? ! i miss hym lyke crazy maaaaaaaaaaan ! );please reach home faster & quuuuuick gv me a text cause im WORRIED , you silly boy ! nyahahahas ! XDDDi wanna meet hym but idk my parents will gv me permission to go out or not . . . grrrrrboyfriend♥ boyfriend♥ , im waiting for you to text me . . . geee ~ hahaha ;DDsince i got nothing else to talk about , im gonna say . . .toddles people ! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAS ! ! ! ! peace

im mad at myself

2011-01-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

Hi people ! well , i cant blog much cause idk what to talk abt so jyeah . . just abit alright to keep my blog updated . (: ive been so tired lately .
im mad at myself .
i cry again & idk why . .
i wanna run from the past .
i dont wanna lose my boyfriend♥ cause i love hym so much .
Baby please dont leave me )';

i really do love you . . ♥

meet boyfriend♥

2011-01-12T07:43:00.001-08:00

He came to my crib as i was so not feeling well . . kepale i mcm nk pecah ! =/
he is so sweet taw . . came my house , hold my hand , usap2 kepale akuh . . its lyke as if im a kitty ((: HAHAHAS !
jyeah he gave me one superb massage on my head than ouhkae already . . serious !
after that , we laught alot . . talking about the first tyme we know each other & so on la . . i so love my boyfriend♥ ^^
hrmm , school was FUN cause theres my new favourite hot teacher *winkwink*
after school slack with Nad , Najmi , Qeem plus hys girlfriend , Sharifah . is that correct spelling for your name dear ? LOL , idk sorry

We all laugh alot & i was buzy playing taptap on Qeem iphone . gerek siaa ! XD
i suke sgt siol ! hahaha
treat boyfriend♥ lunch cause kesian dier , tk bawa duit (: hehehes

Kae , im blank . thats all . chatting with boyfriend♥ now ((:
toddles people !

; i hope that the day ,

when i could forget you totally ,

would come faster .

DYI rip jeans

2011-01-11T06:44:00.000-08:00

So this is how i rip my jeans yesterday (: For those who dont know , you can basically follow these steps la ~ da mcm masak2 seyh ^^

I use this to sand my jeans . but you can use other sand paper too (:

mark your jeans first . make sure mark on the knees la kan ~ hahaha

use the sand paper & sand it .

just keep on sanding it till its torn abit . .

for me , i sand it than just torn it . LOL ! easy ^^

still not satisfied with the sanding ? keep on sanding ahh

ALWAYS remember to place something hard underneath your jeans . easy to sand your jeans & a book is perfect to place it under (:

this is what you get after ripping your jeans . . cool jeans plus MESSSSSSSY ROOM ! muahahahas ! XDD

after all that sanding & ripping , just dump your jeans into the washing machine

this is how your jeans will look lyke after the washing . will look bettr la when its already dry ~

so jyeaah , ive rip my jeans . gonna wear it when im goin out . HAHAHS ! try doing it alright people ? ((: gdluck ouhkae , seriously 2011 really been nice to me ^^ why ? cause theres new sel vendor in school & he is super cute . really ! HAHAHAS ! I LOVE LOVE LOVE SCHOOL ! but . . . I LOVE LOVE LOVE my boyfriend♥ more ((:Oh jyeah , two days i never meet hym . . upset rabak seyh ~ );i miss hym alot ah . .2 days not meeting is lyke 2 weeks sia . betol ! gonna meet hym tmr , for sure ^^i wanna hug hym lyke ikan paus hilang anak . hehehes eyh just now i was readin my previous post than i notice i got alot of spelling error -.-i reedit them bck . ahahahs malu seyh if orang bace ! hrmm . . . what else should i talk abt ? anyone can give me ideas or what so ever ? please LOlomg kepale akuh da start blek ~ ~mcm nk pitam ah . . tsk . sblom anything terjady , i better go .bye

fort canning park

2011-01-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

Heya people ! Picture above was yesterday , went out with boyfriend♥ . from somerset walk to fort caning park , great huh ? hahahas . . actually we wanna go scape flea market cause i wanna check out some stuffs but atlast tk masok -.- pasal akuh malu ~ hahahas !
firstly at scape , we ate long john silver than walk around those scape .
alot of dancing going around siaa ~ boyfriend♥ was getting bored cause i keep on looking at those girls dancing . HAHAHAS !

i laugh alot you know ! boyfriend♥ is so unlucky ~ really , tk bedek !
but the most funniest thing is when he hit the rubbish bin cover , teros dier trpranjat sendiri ~ HAHAHAHAHAS !
klakar rabak taw . . hys reaction is so priceless ! da mcm baby lak eyh ? hehehe

we both observe alot of things happenin on that day . . couple fighting , girl was crying but the guy just ignore & smoke . jerk are always lyke that . pantat ! ~ =/

honestly , boyfriend♥ make me laugh alot tho he ddint laugh . tk klakar kot agknyr ~ oh well . . .
walk to fort cannin . . sampai ke mlam kte pat saner seyh . first tyme boyfriend♥ heard me screams because of stupid leaves rolling down to us @.@
kte dgr bunyi kodok . pakcik jln2 sane jln sini . orang pakai baju mcm xanga2 pun ada . . (:
i love yesterday . ALOT !

pictures uploaded at fb , wanna see ? add me first . if you're lucky enough than 'll accept your request ;DD
I RIP MY PANTS TODAY ! will show you guys next tyme . .
kae da bye
. i wanna eat hahaha

my lovely hair , hahahas

2011-01-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

Hello people ! why i post a picture of my hair , its because many people said that i perm my hair . . kae honestly , i didnt perm my hair =D
Jyup , its natural (: sometymes i do feel lyke i wanna my hair to be straight but when it think back , i really do look nice in curls . not that im praising myself . . its just that its true . you guys imagine eyh if i had my hair straight , confirm2 klakar kan ? ? hahahas !
when i was primary 1 till primary 6 , my hair is awesomely straight but somehow , after i cut my hair short . .
my hair grew & it curls by itself . weird huh ? but it does amaze many people lyke my friend , Tiha . .
we're friends since primary 1 & we grew together , spent tyme together & thats why shes kinda weird looking at my hair because of the weird curls . . hehe ^^
but basically , I JUST LOVE MY CURLY HAIR . . . hahahas XD

so , urhhmm tmr will be going out with boyfriend♥ cause yesterday we didnt get to celebrate our 1st month . hopeful tmr will be my great day with boyfriend♥ ((:
ive pick what i wanna wear for tmr , the problem is that we dont know where he headed to , tmr . . . what i hv in mind is ,,,,,,, scape ? trololol . .
enough abt tmr , lets talk abt today !
WELL ! this year im not gonna ponteng2 madrasa cause now i love madrasa ^^ stakat psl ada uztaz hot eyh ! ! HUAHUAK ! im so kepale batu btol . . heheh

in school , theres hot teacher & in riligion class , theres hot teacher TOO ! ! omg , 2011 really been good to me . keep going on lyke this till forever ouhkae ? ! ahaha

hrm , what now ? well im having some fighting with Reandy . baaahhh ! ! , dont wanna talk abt it . .
grrr im so bored ! boyfriend♥ is out with hys brother . . i miss hym , trololol ♥ =DD

alright , dont wanna let this post be so long .
toddles than ! XDD

; friends is better than enemies ,

but somehow , we're lyke an enemies that

wont face each other anymore )';

first day of sec 3

2011-01-04T06:56:00.001-08:00

Hello people ! first day of school Smallboy♥ fetch me from school =D
i love today ! i meet Nad & Tiha (: woah , alot of differents huh ? all the guys are so tall now with their new long pants . . hahahas . those shorts one also look tall ! trolololol -

well uhhhmmm , not gonna post alot today cause idk what to talk abt -.-
im just worried for Smallboy♥ now cause he said he finish soccer at 10 plus but now 11 plus darling & you still havent text me yet . .
ouh jyeah , he super lazy you know ~ he skip hys practise .
if you didnt go for practise , how to pass & hv your own motor license ? dont skip ouhkae baby (:

im so tired after school , do my chores & i sleep lyke apig till night ^^ hehehe
eyh i dream that i open this door & saw alot of different types of sandwitches . . omfg , its so yummy till i drip my saliva . HAHAHAHAHAS ! !
but , when i wokeup , i suck my saliva up XDDD
disgusting , i know ! huahuahuahuakkkkkk

hrmm kae i gtg , i wnna eat . IM HUNGRY !
toddles (:

; i love you

but you threw my love into the trash )';

Smallboy being harsh towards me

2011-01-03T06:30:00.001-08:00

Hi awesome peoples (: see that picture above ? jyesh , thats what im feeling right now . . am i dumb to still hv those feelings ? tsk =/
school start tomorrow & im so excited now . . tonight for sure i cant sleep ^^ =D
im so gonna start afresh for school this year , lyke real huh ? hahahaha

well today was cool-ness , i guess . Liza & me plus Smallboy♥ company Najmi to buy henna to dyed hys hair back to BLACK ! we ate LJS & Liza treat me ♥ how sweet ?
i love her (: we ate cheese fries with crispy . . . . crispy what ? err idk , forgotten . hehe but its so YUMMY tho

Smallboy is so harsh towards me ); please dont be harsh to me ~
its not that i dont mind hym being harsh to me but it just reminds me that Reandy is so much better . not better , BETTER ~ as in , Reandy is much more loving to me )';
i think i should stop talking abt Reandy cause everytyme i talk-ed abt hym , i shed tears . . .
thats how bad i feel when i start talking abt hym . sigh *

so please Smallboy , dont be harsh to me ); i beg okae

the same song still stuck on my mind , back to december ******
GOSSSSSSH ):

well since tomorrow is gonna be my happiest day(i hope) , im gonna ignore my feeling today . trolololol ! !

hope mine & Nad plus Tiha friendship will get better this year cause 2010 , we suffer al0t 0f pains . BE GOOD TO US KAE ! nyahahah ;DD
seriosuly i cant wait to meet them tomorrow .
hpmh

i better be going cause i think i post alot for today , uhuh ?
toddles than ((: ♥

; theres no one that understand me ,

lyke you always did )';

Our journey continue ,

2011-01-02T05:55:00.001-08:00

Heya people (: im so happy that Smallboy♥ & me could start all over again ! Geee ! i promise i wont ever leave you anymore . thank god that i finally really had open up my eyes to make me realise that Smallboy♥ is the one for me ;D
since its 2011 , i wanna try leave those bad past as memories abt Reandy .
im gonna love Smallboy & not hurt hym =DD

AAAAAwwww ! ~ I SWEAR I LOVE HYM ! ! ♥♥♥

im gonna let my fb wall unprivate cause i wanna Reandy to see HOW HAPPY I AM NOW WITHOUT HYM ^^ cool huh -

kae , in the afternoon Smallboy came to my crib & we off to wedding invitation . we keep teasing each other in the car while daddy was driving . . hahahha .
baaahh . i still remember when we're on the way to drop hym at jurongpint , he fall asleep & I SNAP PICTURE OF HYM ! huahuak
omg im so bad ^.^ if you ever disturb me , im gonna post your cute photo on fb jyeah ? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAS *evil laugh XDDD
sumpah saya cinta awak , kamal . . .

i wont leave you again ♥ ((:

2 days without Smallboy

2011-01-01T04:39:00.000-08:00

its 2011 . please be nice to me , i beg ~
ouhkae i admit 2 days without Smallboy is lyke hell );
i miss hym . .
seriously hys the second guy that i ever trust . really .
Reandy break alot of promisses but Smallboy is different . . . he really do keep hys words till now . . i thought when i brokeup with hym , he'll start drinking again but no he didnt . . .
could he be the one for me ? idk .
it will be shameful ryte for a girl to ask for a start over relationship .

BAAAAAAAHHHHH ! ! cant i just stick to one ? ! omg
Reandy or Kamal ? gosh man ~
tsk . i feel so guilty to Smallboy .
what should i do ? ? i apologize to Smallboy but can a sorry fix hys broken heart ? NO !
i miss Reandy alot but idk if i still do love hym or not cause i cant feel any love . confused by tht feeling -

Ouhh Smallboy , i still love you ♥

Nonono , Smallboy must find someone new . he cant be waiting for me . . he dont deserve me . .
sigh ******
God , i just wanna be happy please )';

brokeup with smallboy

2010-12-30T08:18:00.000-08:00

i broke up with Smallboy , i ask for it . .
i do love hym but i cant seem to stop loving Reandy . it so wrong right to love two guys ? i think its best if we're seperate .
Reandy call me crazy just nw . .
jyeah3 im crazy . happy ? you pity me because im crazy .
GOOD ! !
haish . . i dont know what to do anymore )';
im not gonna be a good girlfriend EVER ~
fml really . i wanna cry out everything . . i wanna be alone . . wait , im already a loner now )'; )'; )'; 2010 is finally over . . haish . please be good to me , 2011 )';

i just wanna be happy , please )'; )'; )';

I love my Boyfriend !

2010-12-29T00:55:00.001-08:00

Yesterday went to SSDC with Smallboy as he wanna enrol motor license . hys 18 brithday was ysterday & he so freaking eager to hv a motorbike . hahas ! planned to watch movie at 4pm but ! im late so we watch movie at abt 5 plus . we wtch Gulliver .
its so damn funny ! smallboy & me laugh our ass out XD
so hillarious , really ! ;D
we're so hungry actually ~ we grab nachos & eat before de movie started . trololol !
aftr movie went jrngpoint to had our dinner . BURGER KING !
i swear . we laugh alot yesterday !
we jokes ard . tease each other . i feel lyke , im in the past (:
happy moments , i guess ^^
he send me home with a hug & kisses . . .
i love my boyfriend alot ! ♥
tho i still cant get over Reandy but i know my limits .
i just dont want to repeat those mistakes again (';

ouhkae , i think i better go . i need to pee ! ! ! hahahas !
toddles .

i swear . .

2010-12-20T07:49:00.000-08:00

i swear im not in the mood today . plan with smallboy was lyke seriously cock up cause of the rain -,-"

damn it ! we're both dah mcm boring siak . . we go east coast park just to eat that mcdonald . fml la ! i know smallboy was so fucking boring with today but he just keep to hymself . pasal takot i hilang mood kn ?

you know what im thinking ?

im just not the ryte girl for smallboy . akuh da mcm control hidup dier gytu . . i dont let hym smoke or drink . .

whats wrong with you fiq ? ! ~ )';

I DONT WANNA FUCKING CONTROL SMALLBOY LYKE HOW I USE TO CONTROL REANDY ! ! !

akuh takot kene tinggal kn lg . . . . . .. )'; )';

Bugis .

2010-12-18T16:21:00.000-08:00

Im wide awake now & i guess Smallboy hv not wake up yet cause he hv not texts me yet . haha ! Yesterday was a great day for me , i guess (:went to bugis with smallboy but we endup going to hv our stomach full , haha ! proceed to clark quay with smallboy cause i tgk dier jamming . I SWEAR HE WAS SO HOT WHEN HE PLAY THOSE DRUMS ! gee ! ~ =D
to be honest , im happy for a day yesterday . i wasnt thinking abt Reandy at all & im proud of it cause maybe sooner or later , i'll forget hym (:
i kept smiling everytyme i look at smallboy . hys just too cute to look at ! HAHAHAS ! XD
& i fine hys actions was priceless when he keeps pulling my nose ! jyesh , its lyke a very min when he look at me , he'll pull my nose . ouhkae , im melting right now thinking of Smallboy♥ . grr
i think i better text Smallboy , i dont wanna us to be late for work . hehe ^^

i love yesterday alot ! (:

Geram !

2010-12-13T07:04:00.000-08:00

im freaking not happy now . im crying none stop . stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupiid ! ! cause of one girl & my lyfe was messed up )'; babi ! anak haram betol ! khw tk suke eyh tgk akuh happy ? ! b0d0h ! tkd laki laen eyh yg khw nk ! ? BODOH ! pcl khw sampai skrng akuh tk happy ! memang akuh da ada mataer tp pcl khw la jgk akuh tk prcayekn lelaki ! ! jahanam khw ! ! dasar puki tk cuci ! ! buto ! !
akuh benci khw ! akuh benci korang ! )';
)'; )'; )';
)';
korang knpe tknk tgk akuh happy ah ? apa sala akuh ? )'; )'; )';

omg ! i want those shoes !

2010-12-12T06:13:00.000-08:00

or

Which one is nicer ? ! OMG ! Seriously , idk which one to pick . grrr !

071210

2010-12-08T09:34:00.000-08:00

I guess , im back to blogging . im happy with my lyfe now , much more happier . jyesh , im attached with someone new . reandy was right , he said that i can find a better one . guess what ? im with someone who light up my lyfe when reandy was gone . those pain & heartbroken is finally gone . i dont hv to fake a smile anymore (: evendo i said that my heart is only unlock for reandy but i gotta to move on . i must ! i hv a very long journey & im not gonna waste it on a guy that doesnt love & care about me anymore .
im really proud to be with this new guy . . from friends to good friends & now we're together . officially together ! =D im really thankful to god that i meet hym . he might be older than me & he might be the very weird person you ever meet but hys has that pure heart that im really into with . he cares about me alot & he do love me for who i am . im not with hym just because hys 18 . . im not showing off that i get can someone older than me , NO .
Love at First sight explains its alot ((:
i always pray every night that god let us live lyfe together till our last breath . .
that new guy im with now is Syed Mustaffa Kamaal .
Thanks for your love & care baby . i love you , Smallboy♥

(happy 17th birthday)

2010-12-02T09:03:00.001-08:00

Happy 17th Birthday ReanDy . . Haish . . I kn0w y0u're g0in t0 celebrate y0ur birthday with y0ur friends & YiJie . hv a gd day okae bby ? masihkah ada ruang untukku di hatymu itu ? )';
ya allah , kuatkan la haty hambamu ini )';
i still call you baby , sayang cause i still love you . . i just wish that we're together now . . )';
do you remember that you said you wont let any third party destroy our relainship ? what happened now ? ? you already treat me lyke a stranger . .
im really down . really really down ~ )';
each day i cried thinking of you . . you ask your friend to pass de msg that you want me to forget you ? but i cant dear . .
i cant forget abt you & i nvr want to forget abt you . i treasure every moments that we spent you know . . you can say that i dont treasure but actually i do ! haish . . . YiJie said that she love you . you guys love each other . . .
i dont care if i trauma for aweek again atleast i know you guys are happy together . . )';

I give you my blessing , ReanDyAdril & Chin YiJie .

you must always always remember that , iLoveu♥ )'; )';

i miss you alot . .

2010-11-28T08:21:00.001-08:00

Why cant we be together ? i really love you . i regret for everything ive done wrong to you . regret it alot ! ive learn my mistake baby . . why cant you give another chance for me to prove to you that i really love you ? everyone deserve a second chance infact they deserve alot of chances . . baby i will love you with all my heart . i will take care of you . i will give you anything that you wanted . i want you to be mine . . please . . be mine ? )';

iLoveu , ReanDyAdril♥

why her ? ?

2010-11-09T07:01:00.001-08:00

Th0ugh y0u pick her , i still l0ve y0u baby .
Happy 19M0nths yang tk menjadi . Haish . . . )';
Tmr g0ing 0ut with Ann . Mummy friend's s0n . 0ur mum is s0 pelik ~ =/
Kae bye , im tired .

I meet HYm .

2010-11-08T06:04:00.001-08:00

I feel so happy to meet you just now sayang . . Its our last meeting & we make it so memorable ~ Those hugs & kisses , haish . . I feel lyke we are back togther but no we are not . .
As i promise that after dis last meeting , i wont disturb your lyfe anymore & i'll keep my words . .
But i wish that someday we'll meet again & someday we'll get back togetehr .
I know you still cant forgv me but thats okae . . I understand (:
I really wish you are mine sayang . .
Atleast i know that you still do love me . I love you too , Dy . (';

Be mine , please ? (';

i always love you .

2010-11-03T22:35:00.001-07:00

I miss you alot den ever Dy . Why must we end dis way ? I wanted you back but you already with someone else . . Please come back ~ )';
How can you forget about me so fast ? I miss you alot .
I have sleepless everynyte . .
I just want you back .
Is it so much what im asking for ?
I cried everynyte thinking about you . . I cant moveon without you . I really cant ! )';
Gv me another chance to show you that i truly love you .
Im no good in showing love or show that i care for you lyke how she does to you . . Im really no good . Im sorry )';
Please . . .
I wish you come back to me on the 9th .
I cant accept the fact that we are lyke dis & you're with someone else but i know someday i hv to accept it even if i hate it . )';
I miss your hugs . I miss you being here with me baby . .
)'; )'; )';

I pass !

2010-10-28T16:11:00.001-07:00

Yesterday after we get our report books , we all went to slack . Sadly Vickraam nvr join us , Choon Wee also . .

Isnt he cute ? He really melts me, y0u kn0w ! Hehehe ^^ I lyke hym♥ (: But i still LOVE Reandy♥ hor .

Okae la thats all . I gtg cause i need to bath & go school again as i need to take my retake exam . . Hope i pass ~
Bye peeps ! =D

ps :// ouh shit ! i still keep thinking about Reandy . . Haish )';

I need you .

2010-10-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

Baby , where are you ? I call you but you reject . I call you , you pickup but hung up on me . Why ? I miss y0u al0t Biee . You always stay beside me whatever happeneds . You are always there for me but no more . . .
You rememebr when i had no friends in school ? You are always there for me ~
Biee , now im fighting with my friends . Why you aint here for me ? );
I hv to go thru it alone . . I cant , i really cant . I need you in my lyfe !
Why must you leave me ? I love you !
I tried to moveon but still i cant . I wanna move on but moveon with you . . We've been thru alot but now you just gonna let it go .
Come back please ? )';

BBQ !

2010-10-24T04:45:00.001-07:00

Yesterday BBQ at J0el place . Fun but Vickraam d0nt hv . Awww ! ~ Miss hym s0 much .

Kae , nxt tyme i bl0g agaen . Bye !

MIA

2010-10-01T09:47:00.001-07:00

M.I.A , will be back after exams .

Bye peeps !

RAya 2010

2010-09-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Raya dis year was 0kae2 . . Not fun lyke last year .
Anw , i w0nt be bl0gging f0r awhile cz lazyness came bck areadi . .
bye peeps !

ps :// (:

0ut with Liza .

2010-09-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

Thats Lizawati ! Thanks f0r de ring , babe ! Maybe next tyme , we're g0ing cityhall . . Hehehes ! Anw , m0re pics at fb jyeaaah !
Bye =DD

ps :// im trying to get over it . .

Get over it . .

2010-09-02T06:27:00.000-07:00

I see my bl0g is getting dead & b0ring ryte ? Tsk .
I kn0w n0 0ne read my bl0g . . Hahahas ! Its 0uhkae . Bl0g is where i entertain myself . Cheyhbaaah ! ~
N0w adays , ive been s0 FiretrUCK UP !
Erghhh ! ~
Asyik nk mrh2 je taw akuh nieh . . Haish ~
Reandy suda trying t0 be a matrep but t0 me , its just a typical matrep .
Im getting b0red 0f hys typical matrep punyr bahasa . .

A guy has been c0ntacting me . G0sh ! He s0 damn irritating but still hys nice . . Let me rec0rrect it ,
Hys WAY TO NICE . . . Please d0nt d0 it anym0re kae ? Stop it . Thank y0u (:
I see many peep0s already m0ve 0n with thier lyfes . . Hrmm , i guess i hv t0 learn h0w t0 get 0ver it & learn h0w t0 m0ve 0n with my lyfe .
Tsk . Wish me luck , peeps (:
Amin ~

ps :// must accept those facts . .

Me & Lizawati .

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Pictures ab0ve during Teachers Day & just n0w g0 0ut . .
My l0ng last Besties , Lizawati♥ .
I miss her lyke s0 g0d damn much . .
Anw , pictures ab0ve all i edit cz im b0red ! HAhahaahs ! ^^

Im addicted t0 the s0ng , Love The Way You Lie . (:

0uhkae bye ~

ps :// attach ?